“The whole lot is irritating,” Montaigne sings in her Eurovision entry, Technicolour – and it appears to be a case of life imitating artwork.
SBS made the “tough” choice not to ship an Australian delegation this yr, after weighing up Covid security issues.
Thus far, Australia is the one nation sending a prerecorded live-on-tape entry, which can be broadcast dwell on the first semi-final from 5am on Wednesday.
“I truthfully thought I used to be nice about it – I’m continuously checking in with myself,” says Montaigne, whose actual title is Jessica Cerro. “Then we had the press convention final week and I took it fairly arduous, seeing all the opposite contestants there in Rotterdam and me streaming from right here.
“I had my cathartic second the place I had a large cry. I didn’t see it coming in any respect, I suppose I’d bottled it up.”
In a tearful TikTok she stated: “I want to be there so badly. I’m a mess.”
Even when Cerro progresses by means of tomorrow’s semi-finals, she gained’t carry out the track dwell once more. At each the ultimate and semi-finals, her efficiency prerecorded from March will be screened.
She needs she had the chance for one other crack. “I believe I can sing Technicolour higher now than I might in March. Plus, my nerves are far much less intense,” she says.
She is going to nonetheless be up and prepared to give interviews and wave on the SBS studios at 5am, made up in her vibrant outfit. She is going to deliver an entourage together with her mother and father, sister, grandma, aunt, associate and his household.
Her expectation, although, is that she’ll bow out on the semis. The chances are towards her: “I’ll have the least flashy stage set and the least scaling – we’ve tried our greatest, but it surely’s nonetheless a screening and also you lose one thing with that,” she says. “I additionally had much less time to apply my vocals and simply get all my shit prime notch.”
Not many contestants have the chance to enter Eurovision twice in consecutive years with completely different songs. Don’t Break Me was voted the winner at Australia Decides 2020, earlier than Eurovision was cancelled for the primary time in its 64 years. This yr, Cerro obtained to select her personal entry with SBS’s approval (they politely declined a song she wrote about undercover aliens attempting to deliver down the music business).
Technicolour is about each solidarity and individuality, Cerro says. “It acknowledges the deserves of individuality including range to a group; that if we band collectively, we’ll have the resilience to get by means of most issues.”
She wrote it principally, she says, for queer folks: “I’m queer, my boyfriend’s queer and most of my buddies are.”
Eurovision offers Australians who aren’t into sport – together with her associate – the identical feeling of spectacle, id, competitors and rallying collectively. “He’s bi, inventive and a stunning steadiness of masculine and female,” she says. “A number of queer folks like him hate the poisonous masculinity connotations that sport can carry, however love that feeling of positivity, pleasant rivalry, expression of affection and celebration of distinction.”
Final time we spoke, Cerro – a said introvert – instructed me that weeding her backyard offers her as a lot pleasure as Eurovision and she or he says that’s “completely” nonetheless the case. “Gardening is mundane, but it surely’s constant and soothing. Eurovision isn’t soothing! It’s spending half a yr on a three-minute efficiency,” she says, laughing.
Eurovision knowledgeable and the co-founder of the Aussievision podcast, Dale Roberts, says it’ll be essentially the most difficult yr but for Australia, being the only real “dwell on tape” efficiency.
“Nevertheless, Montaigne’s efficiency is de facto bloody good and it doesn’t appear like we’re Zooming in from the again bed room,” he says.
“There’s a lot goodwill from European followers; hopefully that turns into votes and a good end result.”
And if she makes it by means of?
“I’ll flip my lid,” Cerro says. “In a great way!”